Making cats…

When I took felting classes I made a small cat resembling my son’s cat Roaree. He took that felted cat to work and had it on his desk. When they got their second cat Georgia, he asked for another.

But also the original Roaree I had done had lost his tail. Could I fix it? Well when I saw the first attempt I had made, sad. So I decided to do an updated Roaree as well.

The original Roaree on the right and the new Roaree on the left.
Felted Georgia
The real thing!

The Path

There is no fixed path to enlightenment. Enlightenment is not a destination, a goal, the final resting place at the end of a long journey – that’s the mind’s version of enlightenment. Enlightenment is infinitely closer than anything you could imagine.

This is very good news. It means that nobody is the authority on your path – no teacher, no guru, no religious leader. It means that nobody can tell you the right ‘way’ for you. It means that you cannot go wrong, even if you think you’ve gone wrong. It means that nothing that happens can ever lead you off the path, for the path is whatever happens.

And nothing can take you away from the miracle of life, or bring you closer to it for that matter, since the miracle is all around, already shining brightly, as every thought, sensation, image, feeling, smell, sound, and as the deeper miracle of the one who is aware of all this, intimate with all this, present to all of this.

Be the light of awareness that you naturally are, enlightening the moment, whatever its contents. Doubt, fear, sadness, anger, intense confusion – maybe, just maybe these are neither enemies nor blocks to enlightenment, but expressions of a deeper intelligence, the same incomprehensibly vast and awake intelligence that gives birth to stars and moves the ocean tides and sends each and every living thing off on it’s paradoxical journey towards its own being.

Shine your light on all that arises. Come out of the story of time and space and progression towards a future goal, and trust a secret moment. Take any moment. Any moment at all, for any moment is the access point. There are never any blocks – only portals.

You are not some separate entity on a long journey towards a future completion.

You are pure poetry.

Jeff Foster – Falling In Love With Where You Are

Opening the Heart’s Door

Ours is not the work 
of seeking You here 
or there where we 

think You might be, 
but of opening 
the heart’s door, 

and when we do this 
You cannot resist 
coming in, since 

our opening and Your 
entering are one; You 
knock and wait, and 

when we open we 
find that You were 
there all along and 

will not leave us. 

Meister Eckhart’s Book of the Heart 

Simply do this…

Be still, and lay aside all thoughts of what you are and what God is; all concepts you have learned about the world; all images you hold about yourself. Empty your mind of everything it thinks is either true or false, or good or bad, of every thought it judges worthy, and all the ideas of which it is ashamed. Hold onto nothing. Do not bring with you one thought the past has taught, nor one belief you ever learned before from anything. Forget this world, forget this course, and come with wholly empty hands unto your God.

ACIM lesson 189

I am here again… leaving a group, leaving a teaching. When will this personality learn? If ever. But now, I’m listening. For whatever reason, I’m listening. To that inner voice or maybe just resting in the flow. No more pouring in other teachings. Now unpacking and releasing all those teachings, Bless the journey. Or not. 

Resting in the silence…

… not so easy as it sounds. A long corridor littered with ideas, beliefs, concepts. All of which needs to be seen and then walked way from. But this time, this time the walking away continues.

That Thursday…

If you’ve visited this site, you could see that my journey has wandered far and wide. The last group was Nouk Sanchez’s and in that group you get paired up with other students, Miracle Buddies, and meet online during the week. I had several. One of which was in California. One Tuesday as we were talking, she asked me about my time with Liberation Unleashed.

Liberation Unleashed was an extraordinary experience. You are paired up with a guide who asks questions about your experience. Not what you’ve read or heard someone else say, but what your actual experience is. I saw for myself that there is no one here. Things just happen. No one making decisions, Things just happen,

It was pretty profound but when I was done, the group I belonged to was still doing what they do. If I wanted to stay connected to them, I had to forget what I saw. And that’s what I did.

But then, in this Tuesday conversation, I said, “all these teachings, even the Course, are only like pacifiers for the ego, to keep it busy so maybe something else can slip in.”

Boom! When I said those words, I heard those words and everything changed. The next day was the Course group and I couldn’t read it, couldn’t listen to it. I ended up leaving the group before it was over.

Since then, i haven’t read anything spiritual, or self-help other than my previous journal entries as they come up in my Day One journal. I don’t belong to any groups. I still meet with people if they want to meet but do not reach out to others unless I feel a nudge to.

So…. I turned to working with my hands. Remembering the old Shaker saying “hands to work and hearts to God.” So what you’ll see now is the meditations I have done in the form of needle and thread. Hope you enjoy…

Beginning a year-long journey with the Course

In the past month I became acquainted with a Course teacher, Nouk Sanchez. She has written several books and for me, she rivals Ken Wapnick for Course knowledge. She’s more heart-based though, I think.

In any event, I’m smitten and have begun their TTC Total Transformation Curriculum. It’s a year-long opportunity to delve deeply in the Course in an experiential way. I’m totally excited.

And as an extra bonus is the other groups they have so that instead of just one group meeting per week, I can join every day if I so choose. Wonderful.

Update… March 2021

Well, it’s interesting how life switches up…in a conversation with a friend, I was reminded of the work I had done on the no-self almost a year and a half prior. As I explained what I had seen for myself, it was as if I woke up from a long dream. What was I doing with all these teachings? All these concepts. And just like that, all this feel away, like sheets of snow off a roof. I departed from the Course on all levels. Stepped back from most of my outward movements with others. Silence. Quiet.

What goes around, comes around….

This past weekend I did some consolidation of old journals and revisited some forum posts from a group (Gurdjieff type) I had participated in 2008-2013, off and on. Actually, it was a book that I had read at that time, that got me moving in that direction. I left the group because I had an interaction with the teacher that didn’t sit well with my personality. It took all these years to get over it. Amazing.

But as I read the posts, I realized how much that teaching is where I am now. Probably why I am where I am in my journey. So I’m back for a visit to the group which is still going. Who knows where it will lead, if I will stay for awhile or not. We’ll see.

Yesterday I went for a walk up the road to the brook. The brilliant yellow, orange leaves were drifting down from on high, so softly, one by one. The brook was completely dry. Never seen it like this in the twenty plus years we’ve lived here. Yet, there was a beauty in it.

I have lived my life joining others in hopes that there would be some connection. That the path I would travel would have some “mighty companions” along the way. And for a time, that has been true. Wonderful friends have been made but always because I gave up my truth for theirs, conceding so we could walk together, even though there was a pull to walk my own truth.

And as life would have it, things fall away. This has happened so many times in this lifetime, you’d think I would have gotten the message sooner. But hey, that’s life!

So this dream character is off on the path. Doing what she feels led to do. Alone it would seem though knowing there is no alone here. Let’s see where she goes…

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