This past Wednesday, I shared how several people in my life have recently died and how mysterious, profound…words fail…I felt. I came across this poem and it echoes the feeling I was trying to share.
We were riding through frozen fields
in a wagon at dawn.
A red wing rose in the darkness.
And suddenly a hare
ran across the road.
One of us pointed to it
with his hand.
That was long ago.
Today neither of them is alive,
Not the hare, nor the man
who made the gesture.
O my love, where are they,
where are they going?
The flash of a hand,
streak of movement, rustle of pebbles.
I ask not out of sorrow,
but in wonder.
~ Czeslaw Milosz ~
Christmas has always been a difficult time of the year for me. Like so many others, the holidays contain so many ideas about how things should be and so very often, real life doesn’t match those ideas. All this is recipe for disaster. One of my stories is that I am forgotten at Christmas. I give, give, give and get very little in return. Ask my husband, he’ll tell you how much he hates the holidays because this aspect of aggie will show up and rain on everything.
The very interesting aspect of this book speaks to a nuance I never really considered. I’ve held the idea that everything that comes to me is for my own good and growth but never really followed that through. I’ve also held the idea that resisting what comes to me is not a good idea but when I read a section of the book where he asks if you show up in your life. Do we resist conflict.
Not my will but Thine, O Lord, be done in me and through me. Let me ever be a channel of blessings, today, now, to those that I contact in every way. Let my going in, my coming out be in accord with that Thou would have me do, and as the call comes, “Here I am, send me, use me”
taken from Edgar Cayce’s daily affirmation on 2/21/08
May we move beyond the violence of September 11th and the escalation of violence throughout the world. May we recognize that all human beings are our brothers and sisters. May we realize we all come from a common source and we all share the same planetary homeland. May we move towards more compassion and less suffering in this world.